I feel the need to apologize when I go on a BMTH reblogging spree because I love them so much.
There’s a numbness inside of me
And I’d do anything to get it out.
Everyone thinks I’m happy as can be
But no one knows what the suffering is about.
The older I get, the more I realize
How wrong is was of me to trust you.
I remember the hate that was in your eyes
And the words you would say to get me through.
Love wasn’t the word for what we had,
I don’t even know what it was.
I remember the day that everything went bad
And I put up with it, just cause.
I tried to remember when you didn’t cause pain
And hoped everyday you would be a better man
Too many days I would lose more than I would gain,
I put up with much more than a young girl can.
I tried my best to keep us together
But I’m glad we did not last.
I’m glad about the broken promises of forever
It is my time to let go of the past.
You are gone, and so am I.
Now it’s time for the memories to die.
Some of you have been following me for the couple years I’ve been on tumblr, and there’s something I would like to share with all of you.
I suffer from self harm. It started in 6th grade when my Nana passed away, and got worse in 8th grade when this boy who would soon become my boyfriend, abused me physically and mentally.
This boy took everything from me, and broke me down into nothing. We eventually broke up, but I was so insecure about everything, I thought I wasn’t good enough, and tried to kill myself several times.
Through those years, I’ve learned a lot about myself and who I want to be. I now have a boyfriend and we’ve been dating for a year, and without him I would be no where. He’s stayed with me through everything; He’s my best friend.
I want to thank ALL of my followers, you guys have helped me also. Without all the love from you guys, I don’t know where I would be today.
Thank you all for showing me I am worth more than I give myself credit for.
I love you guys.